He calls me. It is so nice to hear his voice. He is very excited about his trip. First he is going to view some flats as he wants to move before Christmas. After Christmas, at work, he gets too busy from January until March and March will be too late. He has decided that he will choose a flat by the end of today.
I want to say ‘Move in with me!’ I don’t, of course. I am being patient and, anyway, he would not.
I tell him of my plan to speak Italian next time we are together. He likes that, he says and I can tell that it is true. Well, we can try, anyway. I knew he would like it and it’s a little thing I can do. But, of course, it’s a big thing really. Well, big for me, that is.
He flies out at 6 something. I want to go to the airport to see him off but I won’t. And yet, I wonder, it’s these little impulsive things that I am good at and holding myself back like this may not be the right thing. I don’t know. I don’t really know how to handle it now that we are this much older.
He will phone me later. I think he feels the same thing as I do only different. He sent me pictures with his email. One of them is particularly good. I would post it but I can’t – you know that.
I open it up to send to FfI. I notice an uncanny resemblance to Karl! I wonder why that is, if it’s some sort of in-built thing. I remember the Weasel from that dinner – and again, it’s the same type of face. Hmm. And it’s not because they look like Karl, I know that, it’s just that they all look similar and they’re all the ones I have fallen for. It’s a strange world.
It seems a lot has happened since I last popped in. It’s good that you just didn’t stay at home to weep over a cruel destiny. It also seems you are a romantic type. Which is good for you, from almost any point of view.
Ciao e buona fortuna (data la situazione, se scrivo in italiano è pure meglio)
MoR! Good to see you back! Yes, a lot has happened whilst you’ve been gone……and now there’s Gordon. We shall see. But I certainly haven’t stayed home and wept.
Grazie mille ed è vero, in questa situazione è ancora migliore in italiano
So now it’s time to start the book!!! And, I’ll speak to you in italian. I already do that, so no one will notice the difference, right?
Pietro….please don’t get carried away…..I said I was going to try – and that’s because he would be my lover and, maybe, my boyfriend and, with luck, my partner……
Anyway, trying is different than succeeding…and, as we say in the UK, it’s the thought that counts!