He says he will show me on Monday. I guess it means that after a weekend ‘apart’ at night, Monday we may (will) be together 
Even if I can’t keep doing it, I shall, of course.
Being apart from him is hard. Even as I write this, I can smell him; feel him; want him.
>Need him? Not sure about that. There’s a thing about ‘need’ that is different. Not sure I’m there yet.
Of course, his world is very different from mine. He lives in the ‘fashion’ world. I said the other night that I knew nothing of that ‘world’ – he responded that it was a good thing that I knew nothing about it. Since many gay people here live in that world, I wonder if V is there too and if he is enjoying it. I hope so. I keep meaning to ask him but forget. Just like, yesterday, I forgot to ask if he had quit smoking, given his current health issues.
FfI asked today if F had seen pictures of V. I don’t remember if he has or not. I’m not sure why she asked. To me it’s not that important. F is not V and V is not F. I am with F and not with V, nor will I ever be with V again, in that way. I mean, if F wants to see a picture of V then OK. If not then fine.
Last night was the dinner with the ‘friends’, R and Al. Actually, they were really nice and easy to get on with. We went to a new restaurant and I forgot to pick up the card, so can’t really give you the details. The food was excellent although the service left a little to be desired. Still, starters and mains with 2 bottles of wine between 5 and sweets and the total per head was €30 per head so not so bad. I had a boar stew thing which was really lovely.
Then, AfL, F and I went to a bar for a drink. A friend of AfL’s was there. They chatted in Italian and, to be honest I didn’t get most of it…..sometimes I just switch off. However, F said something to AfL’s friend and I didn’t really understand (and he wouldn’t really explain) – the thing being “I cut your hands”. Those of you who are Italian, perhaps you can explain what it is. We don’t have that in the UK and although I asked F what it meant he just kept repeating it…….but I’m sure it had another meaning.
F asked what I was going to buy in Fox Town (where I go today with A). I said that I might buy a suit as I really need one. F suggested that, if I don’t see one, then I should try his place sometime this month where I will be able to get one at a huge discount. Showroom stock. I’m not sure about this particular designer – never been that keen but, I guess I should have a look. I think it will be classic stuff (for suits anyway) so it might be OK.
We talked about him meeting my friends. He said it would be embarrassing because I will have told them he is gorgeous and handsome and he is not – well, except to me. I suppose he has a point – sort of. Although, I don’t think I’ve actually said that to my friends – but I might have.
Apparently he didn’t say anything to his friends other than ‘I’m seeing this guy’. AfL said that I wasn’t like they expected – but as I don’t know what they expected, it’s difficult to know what that means! She added that I was nothing like S, his previous long-term partner – well, yes, I know that – and I’m certainly not in the fashion industry, nor camp, nor anything like your standard gay man – I guess.
Hopefully we shall be back early enough from Fox Town that we can go for something to eat/a drink with F and AfL – maybe with A as well – that will be the first of my friends, here, that he should meet – although ideally, he should meet Best Mate first, ‘cos she is Best Mate, after all!
AfL also wants us to go to London for a weekend. F said that the company had a flat in the city or near the city we could use. Sounds nice. Also R has his birthday on 24th December and holds a dinner that evening. F said he would be staying in Milan this Christmas and, so we can go. It’s all long(ish) term stuff. It gives me a warm and fuzzy feeling. And I can’t explain, well not in words that really explain, how I feel when I’m with him – how he makes me feel – how happy I am and I’m pretty sure he feels the same – I mean 99% sure.
Anyway, I see him Monday night!
I cut your hands means “ti taglio le mani” , usually said in an ironic way “If you touch my boyfriend I cut your hands!” for instance.
I’m sure tomorrow you’ll have a great time together.
Lola, thank you so much. That’s exactly what it meant. I did feel that the other guy was trying to hit on me but wasn’t sure and V has always said I was so innocent about these things – and now, what you’ve said makes so much sense.
Bless him.
Yes, me too. Just spoken to him and he seems quite keen that we should be together tomorrow night
(btw that was a bit of British understatement)
#1 it’s Monday…. good for you
#2 how would you say “ti taglio mani” in English? I guess that “I cut your hands” does not make any sense in English, a part from the literal creepy sense
Yeah, it’s Monday – hurrah! I am in the middle of writing a new post
Well, if I use the phrase you gave, we would probably say something like ‘if you touch my boyfriend, I will cut (or chop) your fingers off’. To cut your hand is to just make a cut but I think you mean as in cut off the hands. We might also say that we would cut your hands off but usually it is the fingers. And yes, of course, it is creepy
It’s the sort of thing a mother would say to a child to stop them from touching something (either something that would break or something that was dangerous)
Thanks for the explanation.
… and now we want to know what happened yesterday
eh eh!!
No problem, Lola.
And now you can know – see the post above this!