Best Mate and I are friends for unknown reasons. This is what we decided when we were chatting. We have nothing in common, really, except, perhaps, some slightly strange sense of humour.
We also decided I was an incurable romantic whereas she is, most certainly, not. And I am incurable because, quite simply, I do not want to be cured!
We would do opposite things when it comes to men and what to do with them; how to react to their actions (or non-actions); what to expect from them.
Of course, these differences are based on our experiences which are not even remotely similar. She was led down a long, windy, garden path a few years ago by some asshole; I have only been down that path by making it up in my head and not through the antics of some bloke.
So, still, I expect a bloke to be, more or less, honourable, true and reliable which is, for most of the time, what I get. I expect a bloke to fall in love with me easily and quickly and forsake all others.
Of course, with the exception of V, I have had close relationships with these men before we actually got to the ‘being together’ bit and V has, somewhat, spoilt my expectations, which I fully appreciate.
However, when it comes down to it, Best Mate doesn’t want to go through all the shit of having a bloke and I do (I mean, I’d rather not, but needs must, as they say).
And so, I have decided to do something about it. After all (and certainly in this country, as I can never spot them in spite of what Ico might say – unless they’re the type I don’t like), they ain’t gonna be picking me out as I walk down the street and instantly falling in love with me, so I guess I have to do something to show I am available. Given that I really can’t be one of those blokes over 25, standing on the edge of the dance floor, looking only at those who are under 25 and wishing (and, anyway, I don’t want someone who is so young, even if they were interested in me) or in some pub on my own, it will have to be some other way.
I’ll let you know how it works out (if anything does work out) but I have, at least, started one thing so we’ll see. I can’t just sit around in the flat, however nice it is, as they certainly won’t be finding me here!by