I have to make an apology.  To all ladies/women/girls who may read this.  It’s an apology in advance.  In advance of me writing the thing for which I am apologising.

So, I’m sorry.

It’s just that, this week, it’s been terrible.  Well, not all of it.  But it’s like I’m going through my period.  Even if, quite obviously, I don’t have them.  OK, so I’m not getting the stomach cramps (ache, as it used to be before it became a new thing to differentiate it from the less serious and rather ordinary ‘ache’) but I am so irritable and irrational.

But, only at work.

I’m fine when I’m out of work.  Or, rather, I’m fine when F is there, with me.

And now I know why this is.  And I tried to explain it last night when we went out with An, his friend who used to live in London.  We were talking about past relationships and I learnt a little more about the breakup between him and S.  He was saying that he has remained friends with all his ex-boyfriends.  I wish I could say the same.  And then we were talking about friends, in general.

And I tried to explain that it was him that was the key to this on-going friendship he has with so many people.  He was saying that it takes two – which it does but, a little like the guy C, who is my ‘official’ boss at work, sometimes, you’ve got to look at the common factor.

In his case, he is a useless, self-important, misogynist, bigotted, racist, pig of a man.  Nobody likes him and he has many arguments with almost everyone.  And, if arguments keep happening and there is one person who is almost invariably part of the argument, then you’ve got to say that this one person may be the reason that the arguments take place.

Unfortunately, even with me on Monday.  Which annoys me in itself but he just makes my blood boil.  As, it seems, he also does to others.

Whereas F has an opposite effect on people.

And he is the common factor in all of this – in all his friendships with ex-boyfriends.  So it’s him that is the key – not the others.

And, so, maybe that’s why, when he’s around, I feel a different person.

So I feel like I’m having my period – which is good because it means I can’t get pregnant.  See, there’s a bright side to everything

p.s. I also did the booking of restaurants yesterday so that’s another thing off my mind.